Because it needs to be said...

You just can't run away from yourself. I realized that awhile ago on the large scale. I stopped using travel as a way to try and escape dealing with my life as it is (and thus having to deal with myself as I am). I really wish some (ahem!) other people in my life would realize this too.

Then again, aren't I just doing the same thing on a small scale with bingeing? Trying to run away from the demons in my head by going to a place of numbness? That's the funny thing though. The smaller a habit is the harder it is to break. Unlike plane tickets, using bingeing to escape does not cost me hundreds of dollars. Unless you count the therapy, I guess. Hmm...

I suppose my thought process could be, "How much will this binge set me back in my recovery and how much will I have to pay (in therapy, doctor's visits, getting bigger clothes, etc.) to get back to where I started?" I don't actually see this working in the immediacy that bingeing usually excites, but it's still a thought...